then.

When I feel useless. When I less of attention. Doing too well to the people is painful. Cause you do it just to give the best and make others happy, but on the other side you're sad, hurt, and not happy. But if it's not appreciated? All to no avail. Useless.
                                                 
When I confused. With my feeling, and their feeling. Sometime, I think are you have a same feel like i feel to you all? When I want to be the better for them. But I still don't know about their feeling.

Then. I just feel all have changed. I can accept that.

But when I got the news that hurts, it made me desperate. My brain think hard, chest tightness, I'm weak and I know i can't cry on this situation. And, I know you don't realize it.
                                                                 
When feel like rejected and ignored. Only could smile and forget about things like that in a moment in order not to feel pain.

“Someday you're gonna realize
One day you'll see this through my eyes
By then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere even if I cared”